My baby boy is healthy and happy and I couldn’t have asked for anything more. That didn’t mean pregnancy didn’t come with it’s anxieties.
Everything was going fine until I was 7 weeks and something didn’t feel right, I was in a lot of pain and couldn’t do anything. Ringing the midwife, they sent me in for a scan to check all was ok as some pregnancies can be ectopic. Thats where the egg implants into the ovary tube rather than the womb.
Now usually a first scan would be something super exciting for most people, but on occasion it could be something I wouldn’t wish upon anyone. That kind of loss I can’t even begin to imagine what it might feel like. I was lucky that it wasn’t me, but I really felt for those who were having a scan and found out terrible news. A thought goes out to all of you who have experienced that kind of loss.
So my partner was with me (he came of work) and I was incredibly anxious and in a lot of pain. Finally we were called in and I had already thought the worst and was beginning to process it. The sonographer could feel my anxiety and told me not to worry, but I couldn’t help it and those words were not soothing at all.
Finally it came to scanning and it was an internal one as the external one wouldn’t have shown anything up as it would have been too small. I couldn’t look so I shut my eyes.
“And there we have a little heartbeat.”
My eyes shot open and I burst into tears and grabbed my partners hand. I couldn’t believe it. There it was, a little heartbeat looking like a frog just pounding away. All was fine.
“I’m just checking everything and everywhere, yes, definitely one.”
“YES!” We both said.
The sonographer looked at us both and we started laughing. We had to explain that twins run in both our families. My mum was a twin and his mum was a twin so we were also nervous there might be two. She chuckled at us (probably thought we were crazy).
I kindly asked for a photo and she obliged and we walked away knowing everything was fine.